Tag: mental health

Dream Journal, Hobbies, Life, Stories

Dream Stories: To Write or Not

Everlasting Sirua

I’ve been dreaming things up in my imagination for a while now. My earliest dreams were pretty dark considering the amount of scary movies I’d seen or imagined up myself in the dark before falling asleep. I was definitely one of those kids with the nightmares almost constantly every night. Except I never grew out of them til I was in a safer place. Surrounded by 3 cats and a family. Suddenly, these dreams weren’t so scary.

Not all or every dream were horror nightmares. Some were about my life or a different perspective or timeline of my current life. Many things that are unexplained or shown to me out of spiritual connections. However, some were actually a good plot to stories. I still recall them in a fair amount of detail. At times I wonder if I could write it all out. Publish and have people read to see if they’ll enjoy it. Fear and time have stopped me thus far. Will I ever be ready for this?

Maybe with a little bit of time and once I graduate school I’ll have some time to open up my laptop and type what on my mind. Starting is drag but finishing might be enlightening.

Random blog I felt like writing. Lately I’ve been tired and dealing with slight health issues, nothing crazy. Could be lack of sleep and rest. I’ll be back soon with updates and more tarot. Stay sweet everyone!

Hobbies, Shedding my Weight, weight loss

Fitness Journey Begins: 10 Weeks Post Op Weight Loss

Everlasting Sirua

The weeks fly by and I continue to find myself more comfortable with my decision of weight loss surgery. Do I miss eating a good amount of food? Yes. Do I still crave junk food? Sure I do. I’m still an Oreo gal every time my period comes up. But I manage to eat one cookie with some milk to curb that sweet tooth. I’m still drinking my protein since it’s the most convenient breakfast and focusing on a high protein and low carb diet.

Since I was given the okay to workout again. I don’t feel there’s much limits at all since I have to build my stamina and strength. It’s a slow progress I hope to achieve in the next few months. Excitedly I signed up for LA fitness along with my husband. I plan to have gym partners and bring family to motivate me. My main reason? The pool since I love swimming and being in the water. Working out alongside my husband and I’m happy they have a kids club for our younger son to stay and socialize. As a parent it’s always hard to find someone to watch the kids while you try to get something done. Sometimes it’s near impossible. More gyms should have a kids club environment for parents to work out since at times it’s our me time to get ourselves out of a stressful headspace.

Since the surgery I have lost 28 pounds. At my highest weight I’ve lost 36 pounds. It’s amazing how weight can impact a lot since the energy and motivation I have is wonderful. The numbers may not seem as much but comparatively I’ve lost as much as all 3 of my cats put together or the weight of a small child. Where was it hiding? I am not sure. The body is a funny place.

I am excited to share this journey with you all as I progress every week or month. I hope to motivate others and share my experience as honestly as I can. More updates soon!

Tarot/Card Readings

Hoping for Growth: Tarot Tuesday

Everlasting Sirua

Starting up the series again. Hopefully I can post for both Tuesday and Thursdays or at least one of the days depending on clients and cards to share. With permission from some of my clients I’m sharing their card pulls and a vague insight of them and their card.

Ten of Swords

This card indicates disaster. You can see the hands are being stabbed which in a sense signifies betrayal of a sort. Their mental space is chaotic and they’ve been running from themselves however now is the time they face that. This client has been in turmoil with themselves for a while. An anger they felt had to be hidden deep down pushing to the surface whenever a complicated situation presented themselves. They’ve started to realize that certain situations are simply out of their control and growth is possible. Although not a pleasant card I am certain with the epiphany the client had after realizing they have been running they can push and overcome this disaster of emotions they hold.

Hope you enjoyed reading! I’m hoping to continue to ask permission from clients to share a bit of themselves when I draw a card. Usually there’s not much intent except asking what the universe is trying to tell them. Most clients I know personally. Some I do not and they share a bit on how they feel the card represents them or their unique situations.

If you’re interested in being part of this series. Feel free to reach out to me on any of my socials below and mention “Tarot Client Blog Series”. Stay sweet everyone!

Life, Shedding my Weight, Tarot/Card Readings, weight loss

5 Weeks Post Op VSG: Does it Get Easier?

Everlasting Sirua

5 weeks in and I’m feeling better mentally and physically. Granted I could walk more for some exercise but rather wait for my stomach to be fully recovered at 6-7 weeks before I attempt further distances in this heat. I won’t get into specific numbers yet until I’m further in but so far a total of 20 pounds have been lost! Exciting.

I am starting believe it starts to get easier. As someone who sees the pros and cons of things it’s been easy to see both sides.

Pros

  • Learning to eat slower
  • Diet changes to eat healthier
  • Portion changes
  • Less time spent eating
  • Less temptations to eat out
  • Reevaluate my relationship with food

Cons

  • Limited overall consumption of food or liquids
  • Difficult to eat and drink (recommended to wait 30 min to an hour after eating to drink anything)
  • Difficult to truly enjoy food all at once
  • Learning curve when eating small amounts

A lot of the cons are mainly learning curves of having this new stomach. It’s difficult if your previous relationship with food was to eat all at once, eating quickly or used to eating and drinking at once. All these habits become difficult and need to constantly remind yourself to stop once you start feeling full. It’s easy to feel uncomfortable if you overfill yourself and you risk heartburn, nausea, vomiting etc when doing any of the above cons.

I’m looking forward to going to the gym with my current weight loss and furthering my wellness journey. I’ll update in a couple of weeks. In the mean time, I did do a tarot pull this past Tuesday.

The Chariot

This card is about overcoming difficulties in my life and letting the positive come through. Whether it be about my health, work or personal life I can see this coming through for me in every aspect at the moment. I hope to continue down the path of positivity.

Thank you all for reading. I do enjoy updating about my life here and there. More tarot based blogs and updates coming. Hope summer hasn’t melted everyone!

Life

Being Enough

Everlasting Sirua

Weather changes bring about a stir of emotions. Transitions and new year begin to settle as time escapes and you start to feel there’s none left for yourself. That’s why this is a journey. My journey of self care and self love.

Being overwhelmed at times can cause certain things to suffer. I want to be present when I blog. To write and come back to it either later or consistently. That was my plan. However, I’ve found myself with less time and more time to hopefully grow. I’ve always been good at certain things. But never excelled the way I’d hope. I’ve settled to be only good enough since I haven’t found my calling or it hasn’t found me. Sometimes I don’t think I ever will. Perhaps there isn’t a calling. I just need to live, enjoy and watch everything else grow or hinder. To be thankful while also struggling with doubts.

I’m learning to be kind with myself. To devote my titles of mother and wife. But, I should be kinder to myself. Remind myself that I am enough. Even if there is room to be better. Strive for it and accept that there will be difficult days too. The universe has a funny way of giving my signs. And I’m ready to listen.

I hope everyone is doing well. Tarot Tuesdays will be returning soon as I still practice tarot and still take appointments. Thank you for reading. Stay sweet everyone.

Hobbies, Life

Connecting Again: Much Needed Tarot Pull

Everlasting Sirua

I think in life we always want more. Whether it be personally or professionally. That’s okay. We all do at some point or another. It’s difficult to settle into something and wonder if it’s what we want to do for the rest of our lives. There was a point I asked myself: where do I want to be? Where am I going? Am I going to learn here?

I consider any and all lessons in life to be of value. Whether it be good or bad. We are all always in some way or form learning and gaining experience from our current selves in order to serve and/or assist our future selves. Generally as a spiritual person I do believe things happen for a reason. I hope it and believe it with everything I have.

I’m still unsure of who I am. What I want. I have goals and things I want to do. Constantly stressed about the future we will have. Will I teach my children well? When everything fails what will I have left? It’s a thought that can keep me awake at night. I’m sure many others too.

Something else I have always strived to have is connection with others. To have people to uplift and push me to be someone better. I hope I do the same for others. I appreciate the ones who are there for me and tell me I can do this even on days I don’t think I can do it.

Today I felt the need to pull some cards. To connect with my deck again to feel what it had to say. And alas it tells me the same as before. Justice and Ace of cups. That I’ve been wronged in the past and airing it out or perceiving it as part of a greater good benefits me. Meanwhile Ace of cups signals new beginnings. Both of which are generally true. It’s been almost a year of doing Tarot and these cards have brought me comfort like no other. I hope to continue using them through my journey of self love.

Ace of cups & Justice

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Hobbies, Life, Tarot/Card Readings

Christmas Eve: A Break from Knowledge

Everlasting Sirua

Can’t believe it’s almost the end of year. and today is my first day break from college! It’s rough doing part time work, college, two kids and everything else in life. Although it’s two weeks. I’ll be looking into the classes a week before to outline my work and get a head start. As a working mother it’s rough most days to wake up as early as 6:30am-7:45am to fall asleep after 12am. Some days I’m nodding off in front of my laptop or computer chair trying my best to stay awake. Especially now during the season of sickness where if one of us gets sick. Mostly like we will all be sick.

I didn’t blog as much as I wanted to this month. Sometimes being so busy can take it’s toll. Emotionally and at times even physically but I enjoy this. Putting my thoughts and energy into the universe to make things a little more positive for someone or anyone. I try to be there for those I care about and spend the quality time they want or need. Even if it means virtual Starbucks dates with friends as I sit in my car and we laugh about things we catch up on. These small moments are what I love in my friendships with people. The ones I game with, talk to every other day and the ones who uplift each other. The holidays tend to be a time of happiness and even heartbreak. So trying to find the good in a time where things have been dark for some time keeps me going.

With the extra time I have I can fit in some readings in my schedule. If anyone’s interested feel free to reach out in my social links below or text my business number at: +1 (917) 635-7597 so we can set something up. Stay sweet everyone. Happy Holidays!

Life, Tarot/Card Readings

December Already!?

Everlasting Sirua

Wow what a year and how time has gone. Am I hopeful for 2022? Maybe. I’m looking forward to more growth, knowledge and experiences. As a busy mom it’s tough sometimes but I make through with the support and circle I have. I might not game as much as I used to. But muscle memory is truly an amazing thing. I miss playing for hours. But it’s not what it used to be. When priorities change so does the way you enjoy things. You’ll miss it and feel nostalgic or perhaps it’s not the same as it used to be. Truly that’s okay.

My sleep schedule is all over the place. Sometimes I nap during the day. Sleep a bit at night. Always awake early. Constantly tired and sleepy. Hoping the new year brings me more sleep somehow haha.

2022 could be an interesting year. I continue to hope to pass my classes, for my children to be healthy, a better me, continue improving and learning more. Another year of love and success. I hope to have more content soon. And as always. If anyone wants a reading and help me practice. Feel free to send me a message or contact any of my links below. Happy holidays! Stay sweet.

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Hobbies, Life, Tarot/Card Readings

Tarot Tuesday: Card of the Week

Everlasting Sirua

Didn’t draw a card yesterday. But it’s never too late to draw and claim energy for the week.

The Moon: Unknown, Intuition, Unconscious

I’ve seen this card a few times. Seems like a lot of things remain unknown and wanting me to tap into my intuition. Through the years my intuition has been what guided me through a lot of emotionally troubled situations. I rather avoid them and live peacefully. There’s many truths I push down and unconsciously it gets brought up to the surface in my dreams. Unfinished business is terrible and some things are better left unspoken.

Being busy is not fun when there’s no time for hobbies. From July til about last week I hadn’t really played video games. But, managed to watch shows while either feedings the kids and playing with them. Most days I rather lay in bed and read or research. Holidays can bring up emotions that get pushed down. But I press on. Move forward and love yourself. The past can be used for growth. The unknown is a scary place.

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Life, motherhood

Random Thoughts: Making Time

Everlasting Sirua

As someone who’s constantly on the go. And I mean this in every sense. Whether it be physically or mentally. It’s hard to make time for yourself and perhaps others. This is your reminder to do so. Self love. Self care. And find balance in your life. Take a few minutes to breathe. Call someone who makes you happy or take a walk. Whatever it takes to bring you back from turmoil. Cry it out if you need to. Life can be hard. It’s okay to not be okay.

I have a lot of moments like this as a mother. Motherhood is a still something I struggle with emotionally every day. I love my babies. They’re my world. It’s easy to forget about myself in the heat of things. When they’re crying and need things. Once they’re in bed after a long and difficult day. The mom guilt comes in and there I am wishing I could of done better and wondering what I could of done better. But I try to remember that the best thing is to take care of myself. If I’m taking care of myself then I’m bringing that positivity into their lives as well. Even to those around me. Although it’s better said than done. Please try to make time for you.